Well, I dislike it when ppl 'think' they know the truth but they dont know anything of the issue.-never did either. They never truly heard the story from both sides. And they probably could not understand nor care to know. Which is fine. Whatever. It was the past. Now it is the end of it.)
However, don't tell me what the truth is, cuz I had to fight for what is true to me. (I had to go throu my own pain others have done to me. Learn from those pains and remember to never go throu those pains again.)
((I could care less if you 'block' me on facebook. BUT I would NEVER ever lower myself to you and I will never apologize for anything that is not true. I have my own reasons of why I should not feel sorry for you)).
I will be rude and be honest about it if it is necessary. I am not a nice person 24/7-no one is. (If they were its them 'pretending to be nice'). I know I am a mellow person; I have my moods be cheerful and happy, other moods of sadness and calmness, and emotions of rage and regret.
(However I have no regrest for 'those' ppl nor how my life is now).
-(Life isnt all about happiness. It has sadness, rage, fear, and many more emotions for humans have emotions; without them we would not be considered human.)
I know I'm a cautious person now. I am careful of most things now. For I have seen and heard many things that could have (and did) 'threaten' my life. I have felt pain of what others done to me. I do have fears. And 1 fear is people- for you never know what 'certain' people are capable of doing to you. Who wouldn't be? Everyone/ most ppl fear ppl's actions-I am not the only one who does. So I do my best to avoid 'those' types of ppl -and live a great life without them.
I know I am not 'FAKE' I am real and I know my friend(s) and the ppl I share moments in my life now (and my family who have been in my life since I was born) know who I am, who I am like. Though no one knows me, and I mean no one, knows what I really am (since I don't have ppl around me 24/7). Sometimes ppl never know who they really are- and that's not a good or a bad thing at all. (As I said, Im not NICE 24/7)
-I know 'other' ppl will call me a fake (for who knows how long they'll think that and really why?)
((Most ppl have said it was jealously for why 'those' ppl think that- which I believe that. I find that is why also.))) and can't change their minds. I dont care to anymore. Sure no one likes to be called fake or things they are NOT.(-Its quite sad and mean why good and honest ppl are called 'fake' when the ppl who are calling them names are actually the 'fake' ppl). But that's how ppls' mind's are. Nothing can change them unless they want to change themselves- And see the real truth.
I know I'm nerdy-which I'm totally alright with that; that's how I am. I know I'm not too intelligent, thou I'm okay of that; However, I know I'm not dumb nor mentally impaired. I am me. I know I'm not gorgeous or very pretty- though I'm not ugly nor very fat. Im average and quite cute actually- depending since ppl have their bad hair days-lol. I know I love to be creative and express my inner interests (and talents). I am me.
I know I have MANY dreams and things I want to do now and throughout my life. I know my reasons for living-I do now wish to deal with others who wish to destroy those dreams. So I wont anyone.
I have change yet I have not change who I am- mentally/physically. I know how I behave, how I think, (how I 'create' things, such as a work of art), and how I am towards new and old (past) people.
I have my own mind and thoughts- no other person (nor other 'being' or what those ppl called 'monster') controlling what I think and say. I am my own person with my own opinions and knowledge.
(So 'those' who call(ed) my friend a 'monster' you don't know ANYTHING nor what you are talking about. You (all) have no idea, and I mean NO IDEA, what me and my friend is like-now? How we changed and sorted out our problems through the huge fight we had (like a year ago) and was able to fit it and become even closer friends than ever before-today. True friends have fights, whether if there were many/few fights (or sometimes very different opinions on a issue), and they talk them out and fix them. If friends (both sides) never talked out nor told their honest opinions than they are/were not true friends at all (nor were not destined to be so).
I know what a friend or what friends really are/mean. I know what a friend should or should not do. I know what a best friend is and what a best friend is not. I know not to trust everyone.
I know I'm fine with a small group of friends-for most of the time, big groups of friends cause to much drama. I hate drama. (Expect drama/plays are good depending on the story lol) I know I have many friends I talk to on the Net and I know I have a (/couple) close friend(s). I know they truly care for me and I care for them too.
I do not wish to become friends with ppl who planned to 'emotional scar' and threaten my well being. no whatever what they say now. even if they said sorry about that (which I doubt they truly felt sorry to begin with), I will never forgive them; 'for whom would wish to be surrounded by others who wish to physical/mentally break you down and could potentially take your life?"
-Not me. I'm not that stupid or "blind" to go to that lvl. To deal with more pain and suffering.
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what is there to say anymore.
nothing will change us. nothing will change them.
why must we dread on such childish and demeaning things?
Why must I have to deal with ppl who know nothing yet they say they know everything- about me/my friend?
I do not and I do care to know 'those' ppl anymore. -I know what they have done and wish to never meet nor become their so called friend again).
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I am me. And I know how I wish to live my life no matter how others see it as. I know what's best for me and that I have a life to live for~!
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Mood:
Movingon -
Listening to: video game music
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Reading: poems for school
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Watching: court shows
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Playing: LoD
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Eating: cereal
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Drinking: V8